A Life in Balance

Nama sika; venia benya                   I AM the one, I AM the whole

I greet you beloved family.  There's a part of me that feels like it's jumping up and down in joy, jumping up and down excited about having an opportunity to come and share some space with you again.  Excited about being able to come in close to the Earth as I am doing at this time and every time someone listens to this at a later date or they read it or they allow themselves to link with the energies or essence of this journey, each time that brings me in closer.  Closer to the Earth, closer to each one of you and I send my love, my embrace, my joy to each one as I do so!

This time upon the Earth is filled with light; it is a time that is illuminated with more brilliance and a much higher vibration than has ever been possible before.  This time upon the Earth is a time for each one of you to take an opportunity and affirm you are alive, you are here, you are a part of this transformation that is taking place. 

Sometimes it may feel profound, it may feel huge, it may feel like it's more than what you are able to contain within you.  But the truth is each one of you has an infinite ability to expand.  Each one of you can go as far upon this journey as you would like.  And if you were to choose tomorrow to say ‘no more, I'm done', it's okay.  Whatever the path is that you are taking in your life, whatever choices you are making, it's okay. 

So often you humans have such an ability to give yourself a hard time.  You create expectations and then you perceive that you have not met them and therefore you give yourself a hard time about that and it becomes a vicious cycle of expectation and often times regret.  So for this moment, for the time of this journey, I invite all of you to take in a deep breath and as you breathe out, breathe out expectation, breathe out judgment, let it go away from you.  Oh and already it feels so much better.  Feel your own energies and then feel this group as you are together.  

Nama sika, venia benya; each time I say that there is an even greater pulsation of light and energy that moves through everyone who is present.  Let us go, let us expand.  I invite you to take one more breath in with the intention of breathing within yourself, breathing down, breathing into you center or your core essence.  And then as you are ready, let yourself release the energies of your body.  Let your consciousness move out from you. As it moves out allow yourself to link with the energies of the magnetic grid.

As you move within this space you immediately go to where your higher self resides.  Feel what this is to you.  Know that everything you are feeling right now and everything that you will feel anytime that you come back to this space will reflect wherever your consciousness is at that moment.  You as a human have aspects of your energy that span different vibrations and essence.  So too while you are here with your higher self; it's not all within the magnetic grid, it's not limited to that but we use it as an anchor.  So look around, feel what this space is to you.

As you are ready to do so I invite you to allow your consciousness to shift once more.  As it shifts feel your energies move through the interlocking grid until you align within the crystalline grid.  Feel the vibration, feel the energy, feel the essence of what this is.  I invite you to open up with all your senses.  Is there a tone or a sound that resonates with you?  Are there images, colors, lights, shifts of perception that you become aware of?

Use your sense of smell and taste and feel.  With every sense that you utilize you find that you receive more and more information.  Suddenly this place is filled with light, it sparkles.  There's like a humming tone or a sense of sound.  This is most directly the energy that is now coming into the Earth plane.  It flows through this space of the crystalline grid into the magnetic grid and down into and around everyone and everything that is upon the Earth.  That is one of the reasons why I like to spend time within this space.  It is but a conduit; everything that you do while in the All That Is and in the soul plane moves through on its way into the physical environment of your Earth. 

I invite you to shift your consciousness into the soul plane.  As you find yourself moving into this dimension or this shift in consciousness, look around, open your senses, allow the flow of energy and light to come up within you.  All of this is you.  As you consciously reach out and invite your I AM presence to merge with you within this space, you can feel it.  You know that you are aligned.  Let the essence of your divinity move through your consciousness in such a way that you feel the flow of love, the flow of awareness.  Feel what it is to be so deeply aligned within yourself. 

Now I the Goddess come forth into this space. I reach out to each one of you and I embrace you.  As my energy merges with your own you will find yourself shifting into the space of the All That Is.  Feel the excitement, feel the joy.  There's so much energy that's bubbling up from within all of you so let it just pour over and fill up everything that is here.

There is an aspect of me that is considering tonight creating a space for each of you to be able to more fully integrate the energies that have been flowing so heavily into the Earth and this we will do.  But I am also seeking to assist each of you in recognizing your energies as masculine or feminine, so indeed balance is also a part of that.

Let us begin with each one of you as if you're shaking out your arms and legs, like you're ready to run a race or something and you're getting your muscles all loose and ready to go.  Let yourself just shake off the energies around you, shake off and loosen up and take a deep breath.  In this space of the All That Is, as you allow your consciousness to open up even further, allow your perceptions to also open with your consciousness. 

With the alignment of the planets between the universe and the Earth there was almost a continuous influx of a high vibrational energy over the last several weeks.  Some of you as this has come in have felt yourself relaxing, others have felt very intense and uptight, some of you have noticed that old issues, old energies, old ideas seem to be coming around again.

In this moment I want you to consciously consider everything that's happened to you over the last few weeks upon the Earth, as if that's all kind of mingling around in the energy beside one side of your consciousness.  And then there was that influx of energy.  This is the crystalline energy; this is the energy that is a fine light vibration. 

It cannot be measured by the typical means that people use upon the earth but each one of you have the ability to discern it for yourself.  And it doesn't matter what scientists may or may not say.  So for yourself stand here in the space of the All That Is, with you and your life as if on one side of you, and all of this new crystalline, light, fine vibration on the other side of you. 

Some of you feel it as if it's a big wall pressing down on you.  Others of you perceive it as a cloud.  Others of you perceive it as simply a mist in and around them.  There's no right or wrong of course, there is only your perception. 

Here within this space I invite you to utilize your consciousness as a means of balancing these energies.  Everything happening within your life on the one side, the new vibrational energies on the other.  And let all of that flow together and as if you are bringing your arms together and embracing everything, let it all come together in your consciousness. 

For some it feels like you get slammed and in that case I invite you to let the energies flow in slowly, easily, gently.  And with that flow of energy as it comes in from one side, have a gentle flow coming in from the other and then allow it to merge.  There, that's much better; I feel that all of you are now able to incorporate that much more easily.  And so there is that continuous flow.  You allow into your consciousness all that is happening in your daily life.  And then on the other side you invite in the trickle and the vibration of these crystalline energies.  And as it all comes through your consciousness it creates a space of balance and it creates an energy within you that lets you feel stronger, that lets you become more aware of everything within you and what it's like to be infused with this energy.

Let yourself breathe gently and easily.  Allow yourself to feel the flow until you get to the point where everything that feels like it's been out of kilter is now within you and it's very balanced by this light, fine vibration.  When you consider your life, if there's anything else that feels kind of heavy and like it's wearing you down or pulling you down, invite it to come in right now and let it flow through you with gentleness and ease. There.  Now as you look inward within your consciousness, consider the last few weeks.

Are you now able to feel a greater fullness and a greater integrating of these impulses of light that have come into the Earth?  If anything still feels a little off kilter, breathing gently, easily, deeply within yourself and you can bring in a little bit more of daily life and a little bit more of the crystal vibration.  There we go.

If you can find a way to create this balance or create this space in your day you will find that things won't bother you as much.  You will find that what you seek to have or manifest will come with greater ease.  But most importantly you will feel good.  Consider what it is to simply feel good as you're living your life.

Now another way of looking at balance within your life is considering the masculine and the feminine attributes within you.  For those of you who are women, as you consider the feminine energies let them flow through you.  You who are men also have feminine energies within you, most likely to a different degree. 

I invite you to think about what it is to be feminine.  How does that make you feel in your heart?  How does that affect you in your daily life?  I'm hearing from some of you that it makes you feel vulnerable, it makes you feel weak.  From others I hear it makes you feel very desirable, it gives you a sense of presence. 

For those of you who align with it first and foremost as a feeling of being desirable, a sense of presence, just breathe in femininity and let it move down through you.  Let it move through your head, move through your body; let it move through all of your energy bodies.  This is what it is to be feminine. 

For those of you if it makes you feel vulnerable or weak, then allow the strength of femininity to move through you.  So that each of you, those who are women feel it in the way that it might be their more dominant energy; and those of you that are men, allow it to come into you and feel the presence within you. 

Being feminine is something to revel in, to feel good about, and you may choose to move into the sexual energies of being feminine because that is a part of you and your daily life.  Again if it brings up fear or vulnerability let your own energies flow through you, feel gentle, loving and nurturing so that as a woman you can stand in the space of who you are and feel all those feminine energies strong, sexual, gentle, loving. 

Whatever it may be, let them flow through you and feel good about it.  If there's anything that feels uncomfortable then breathe in the essence of your divinity, breathe in that new balanced energy until you feel good, excited perhaps or at the very least, at peace, with the feminine energies.  And for those where it's your less dominant, so too feel it as something that is comfortable within you.  Feel it as something that is a part of you and let that flow.

Let us shift to the masculine energies for all the men who are working with this at this time.  Let the strength of your masculine energies flow forth from you.  Feel it in the way that it makes you feel.  For some it feels strong, confident, forceful, and then for others - perhaps for all the women getting in touch with their masculine energies - it might feel uncomfortable to you, like it pushes you or it is aligned with something that feels different. 

The masculine energies and the masculine, some would call it domination but I don't really care for that word, but the predominance of the masculine thought form has been upon the Earth most recently, the last few thousands of years.  So everyone is affected by it.  I invite each of you who are men to really feel the flow and the vibration of this masculine energy, let it move through your body and feel it as it blends with the new energy coming into the Earth.  That new energy that you had tapped into before is a balanced energy so let that merge with your masculine energies. 

And I'm hearing from some about inviting people to feel the sexual energy that is aligned with the male.  Is it different from the feminine sexual energy?  So feel what it is within you.  Is it something to give you strength?  Is it something that makes you feel weak or vulnerable?  For either one of you, male or female, is it something to be used as control or manipulation?  Men and women have both worked with the sexual energies in this manner.  So for now I invite you to consider who you are in this lifetime, man or woman, and feel that flow of energy that is most dominant within you.  Allow it to flow through you until it feels good, until it gives you a sense of confidence, a sense of awareness.

And then for those of you with the masculine energy which is most dominant, feel that move through you, let it bring out all that is the best or strongest or makes you feel the best within you.  And feel the flow of your divinity as it moves through you.  And now everyone look at yourself, both feminine and masculine, realize how as you move through your days you are never completely one or the other but a mixture of both.  One can analyze the traits of each sexuality if they so choose, but it is not necessary.  It only becomes something to consider when you find yourself leaning too far in one direction or the other.

The Earth has been feminine-energy dominant, and then it's been masculine-energy dominant.  But now moving forward; it's about a balanced energy.  It makes me chuckle to hear people sometimes say, ‘well everyone will be androgynous' and believe me you are light years away from that. 

The Earth is such a beautiful place.  The Earth-bound energies, the gravity, the trees, the grass, the water; so much about what it is to be physical is a truly amazing experience.  And your experience upon the Earth is registered through the energies that you are as a human.  So be it masculine or feminine, it is all a part of who you are upon this journey. 

I invite you to have a sense of inviting in a flow of this energy that's moving through into the Earth on such a continuous basis.  With Gaia from the previous journey, you feel the very Earth-bound essence of it.  So you can consider that aspect, you can consider this universal aspect, but let it all flow through you and allow yourself to know that you are balanced.  Whether it's masculine or feminine, it matters not. 

You as a human are balanced, you are connected within yourself, you flow into the energies of femininity and then back into the masculinity with ease.  As you consider your life and the parts of it that have been a struggle for you most recently, look at it from this new perspective.  Do you find that bringing in more of the masculine energy gives you a greater understanding?  Perhaps the reverse is true.  Bringing in more of that feminine energy allows you to truly feel what you may not have been aware of before. 

If you find yourself being knocked off kilter, consciously open up your mind, hold out your arms as if to embrace and breathe in the essence of balance.  Feel it within.  Now you may choose to take a moment or two and kind of shake off those energies again that you've been considering, working with, transforming.  Let it all go and simply come back into your awareness of yourself as you are in this moment.  Look, see, sense, the brilliance of the light that you emanate.  You are so very radiant. You have this ability to balance the energies of your life. 

I invite you to come back within the energies of this circle.  As a group you may see or sense others that you know or recognize.  You are each connected to one another.  You are each an individual and unique soul essence but your lives are interwoven because you like this type of energy work and because you are human.  You are not alone.  There are many others out here with you. 

Perceive as if coming up within the center of this group a hologram of the Earth.  This hologram allows you to perceive that there's more than one; it's as if there's one superimposed on another.  One hologram represents the New Earth and the other represents the Earth upon which you live.

I invite each one of you to send an impulse of your balanced energy into these holograms.  Consciously consider what it is to be very much a part of your feminine or your masculine energies and let that flow and then consciously consider that which is less dominant, but yet it comes up within you as a means of balancing, and let that flow.  Feel the peace within you, feel the joy, feel the awareness.  And it is because you have parts within you that are feminine and parts within you that are masculine and as you embrace and honor these feelings, these aspects of yourself, you will feel better, your life will move with a greater balance.

Breathe in the energies of light and the energies of the crystal and let that flow into these holograms.  And then we release them, we allow them to shift.  As they encounter that crystalline grid work an aspect moves to the New Earth and another aspect moves down into you current physical Earth. 

You as the individual that you are, I invite you to take a deep breath coming back within this balanced essence.  As you shift your focus and allow your energies to return to the soul plane, consciously perceive the essence of your divinity, your I Am presence, because as each one of you creates this balance within yourself, what you are going to find is that you emanate this evolution of yourself or this new perception back within your I Am presence and you can create an effect or a transition of any of the energies that were out of balance. 

This is an opportunity if you so choose. Some might consider this transitioning past lives; I consider it transitioning thoughts, perceptions, or aspects of your consciousness or your divinity.  Your focus is upon your life as it is right now, so anything that allows you to feel the balance, to feel the focus without being pulled or held back by past experiences is something that assists you in moving forward in your life. 

I now invite you to shift once more, allowing your focus to move back within the crystalline grid as it goes down towards the magnetic grid.  As you come within this space I invite you to perceive any shifts or differences as a result of having been upon this journey.  The magnetic grid is transitioning just as the crystalline is and just as your Earth is.  Everything is interrelated.

Take in a deep breath, allowing your consciousness to come back within your physical body.  As it returns to your physical body, you may have a sense of expanding your energy field so that more and more of your divinity and your consciousness is able to come back and be a part of you in your daily life.  As you come back within your physical self, have a sense of reaching down or sending your consciousness into the Earth so that you may align with that part of your energy that you infused into the hologram. 

Reach down until you align with those crystals that represent the heart of Gaia.  Allow yourself to blend with that, feel what it is to be fully present on Earth, to be human, to be male and female, blended within you in whatever form you are in this life.  And those energies reverse, coming back up.  They may come up through the ground, up through your floor; they come back up within you. 

Let yourself feel it as a balance or feel it as you reveling in your masculinity or perhaps your femininity.  It is good to be human.  It's delightful to have these bodies.  The human experience is a potential beyond any other in the universe.  So let yourself enjoy it, let yourself acknowledge all that has come through you in this lifetime.  Feel yourself as feminine, as masculine, as balanced.

And with that as you continue to come in to your body, as you continue to ground within yourself, press *7 upon your phone and that will allow you to come back within this room if you would like to ask me a question.

Question: (paraphrased) At the last part of the journey, it was addressing a question I have.  You are saying that basically now is the time to focus on the life where I am right now.  What is my next issue or thing that I need to work on?  My life now is working every day with infusing energies from spirit and I'm very very pleased with my work.  I seem to detect and I hear it from friend who are healer that there is an initial core issue from trauma from the initial separation from source at a cellular level.  Is that one of the main things I should be focusing on, working on; or what should I move into?

Answer: Beloved, we think this is a wonderful question, not only for you but for everyone who is upon these journey's right now.  The core issue that your friend was picking up on does not feel to me as if it's an issue.  It feels like something that has been a  major factor in this and other lifetimes; but it feels to me as if it's resolved.  Sometimes people may have resolved things but you still have the shadow of what that is or like the memory is still there even through the effect upon you is no longer there.  As I'm looking at this in you, first and foremost let me just say I don't sense anything that needs to be resolved or  worked through.  I sense in you someone who is very dedicated upon her journey and has done a great deal of work, that is why I don't have this sense of anything major or traumatic that needs to be resolved.  If someone is picking something up with you or if you as an individual pick up something within yourself I encourage you to consider it in the light of is this holding me back in my life? Or am I perhaps because I'm in the pattern of looking for things, finding it because I am looking for it? Does that make sense to you?

Sure, sure.  Issues of abandonment and rejection continue to arise and I was wondering if that would have something to do with it?

We ask you in this moment to close your eyes and take in a breath of the balance that we have been doing.  As you consider those issues ask yourself within your heart if this is something that is keeping you from moving forward?  If the answer you feel in your heart, like your heart strings are pulling or one the your other energy centers is pulling within you, then that would be an indication that whatever it is needs to be released or transitioned.  But this in our perception of your beloved is something that you have worked with a great deal.  It feels as if it's resolved to us. We do still see that because it's been a big issue to you in this lifetime, that there is still pattern that you have been used to in the past.  We will say to you that as you are looking towards the future, look towards the future with a brand new pattern; a pattern that is balanced.   A pattern that is without these old hanging on energies.  A pattern that is open for a new beginning for you that is filled with these energies you would like to have in your life.

 Oh absolutely! I just got goose bumps!

You see?  That is listening to your body, you got the goose bumps.   You know in your heart that 'oh yeah, I've done that, I've done that'.  That is how you listen to your body, you honor yourself and you trust in yourself. 

Thank you so much!  The journey was so timely with all the energies lately and all that.   It was just absolutely wonderful.  I bless you.  I thank you from the bottom of my heart.  I am infinitely grateful. 

You are welcome beloved and I of course appreciate your words of love to me.

Question: (paraphrased)  Goddess, I just seem to be in a holding pattern.  Do you see any changes for me any time soon?

Answer: Alright, we invite you to take a minute and breathe into your heart center and consciously open your heart.  (pause) Alright, as we are  looking at you and as we are looking at what's happening around you, we can see this holding pattern that you are speaking of, but we also get a sense of being very busy.  Your mind is very busy, your day is very busy; it just feels like a lot of 'stuff' happening around you and you sometimes get disconnected. It just feels like you get caught up in 'busyness' and whatever that may mean to you.    It's as if you forget to renew and re-balance and reconnect within yourself with your divinity.   So for this place that feels like it's standing still and things are not happening,  if you will actually learn to stand still some of that busyness in your thoughts or in your activity or whatever it is we are picking up on, it will actually allow for this to come in.    The way that we perceive it is that there are these opportunities and potentials for you, it feels like it is around work and relationships as the main things.  It's like they are there but because of the busyness we see around you, it keeps that from coming into your life.  By clearing out the energy, clearing out the clutter, clearing out whatever it is that is causing this vibration of being busy; then you can breathe in balance.  We already feel it happening as we speak to you.  It's like a breath of fresh air comes in.  Can you feel the difference within yourself as we speak of this?

Well, it's interesting.  I work 4 days which is very busy because it needs to be then I spend the other 3 days in meditation.  I've been doing that always in a quiet space.  so....

Even in meditation you might be quieting your mind, but it still feels like there is a kind of frenetic energy around you. If you feel like you are in a holding a pattern or as if things are not transitioning, then even if you spend 3 days in meditation there are still a number of things that are happening.  If you consciously bring through a breath of fresh air, if you consciously clear out whatever it might be, we know what we were seeing in you vs. what we see right now; that making a change is what will allow in this new stuff we see around you. 

Question (paraphrased)  Hi Goddess, thank you so much for this wonderful journey and I know that it is going to help with my particular question.  I identified with the last question and answer.  In addition to my extreme business, it seems I have become very hot.  I am hotter than everybody else, I'm sweating a lot and it's not menopause related.  I am also having a difficult time maintaining a healthy positive attitude and my life is also very frenetic with lots of responsibilities.  Any suggestions especially with this heat because it is really distracting from everything else.

Answer:  Alright beloved.  There are several things happening around you as you are speaking of this.  First of all the heat is the energy coming into you and not being fully integrated.  For an example of this, Shelly is telling us right now that her back is completely drenched from the vibration and the energy that came through from the speaking of this channel.  That is very common, but tonight was even more so. For example, if she is channeling me the Goddess it is a different vibration than if she is channeling her group.   Sometimes it makes her sweaty, other times it does not.  Granted this is a particular moment in time, but everybody as a human processes energy in a different manner.  With everything that is coming in we see you asking for it.  We see you asking for change, we see you asking for a raise in your vibration.  That is what is happening with this.  As it is doing so, it causes you to feel very hot because as that energy is coming in trying to be blended and balanced within your physical body.   When it is not balanced, it comes across as either hot or cold.  Some people feel it as cold, you feel it as hot.  So when you feel that heat and sweating if you would take an opportunity to first and foremost with your consciousness think of being cool and soothing as if a breeze is going through you.  But also have a sense of consciously breathing within yourself, letting that breath of energy and light move through your heart center.  Everything with the new energy is processed through your heart center.  It's important to focus on that and feel it balance there.  And then send it downward into the earth, the energies around you.  You may have a sense of sending it into a room sometimes.  If you are in a meeting with other people and need to balance the energies of the room, we sense that's what happens, sometimes it's there.  You can breathe it into your heart and from your heart you can send it out into the room; just as a means of sending calm or balance or connectedness.  It will backfire on you if you try to use it as a controlling energy because it just won't work that way.  But we feel that is the main thing to do with you when you feel that heat and feeling all that energy as heat within you.  Does that make sense to you?

Yes definitely.

Now you said that this affecting you, you have a lot of business around you too. 

I'm not able to maintain.  I have so much coming at me that I'm just not able to maintain balance.  There are so many people who want things from me.  At work I'm the only one who can do my job and lots of people are wanting.  In my family life I'm also in a  space of responsibility and I just feel I have gotten to a point where I can't handle it.  I'm concerned I'm getting ready to have a physical breakdown just to have some peace. 

In these regards it's somewhat to do with your boundaries.  People are encroaching beyond your boundaries and coming in too close of you.  You are giving, giving, giving of yourself without receiving anything back.  If you begin with your work first because that will be easier to do.  Before you go into work the next time, take the opportunity to really breathe the balanced energy of this journey down within yourself and send it around yourself so that you have a little cocoon around you.    When you go into work, when you are in your office or when you are in the area, consciously sit there and create a space that feels balanced, feels like it's your own, feels like it will nurture and support you.  Was it you or someone else--- then when you send the energy out either through the office or through the people that you work with in a sense of having a balance.  Then as people come to you, as people want you to fix the problems or for you to have the answers to the questions and things; then what you will find you are distanced or disconnected from them.   This allows you to feel more of the presence of the cocoon around you and the support within you.  As it is now we see that when people ask you the question you get drawn into it and you are the only one responsible. But when it's a distance between you and that individual and you reflect back and allow that person to have their responsibility for as much of the situation.  Then you will find you are less stressed.  You might still all that going on around you, but you are less stressed.

When you are leaving the office and driving home, use your car as a place to breathe.  We of course want you to remain very grounded we don't want you to have an accident or anything.  But use it as a place to consciously breathe in relaxation, breathe out tension and stress.  You will find you arrive home feeling much better. With your family there is nothing wrong with creating boundaries and space; 'this is my time everyone can wait'.  People are used to you just stepping in and giving, giving, giving, so it will be a little awkward at first.  You will find that you have so much more to give when you take 5, 10, minute or whatever when you first get home as you are changing clothes.  If you just shut the door and say this is my time, then people will get used to it and you will find that  you are not going to blow your top and you will be much more comfortable with things.  Does that resonate with you?

Yes it does, thank you!

You are welcome.   

Question: (paraphrased) Again the last lady asked one of my questions.  I am menopausal age and I get really hot.  So much that I feel I want to die sometimes.  I get really emotional at that time also.  Is there something I could work on now, because I feel now is really important, I would appreciate it.  Thank you.

Answer:  The energies of menopause and the energies of the crystalline vibrations coming in are different.  Menopause of course is having affect upon the hormones within your body and those hormones are having an affect upon your emotions. Then you double that or compound that with also having these intense energies coming in. It is amplifying these energies already taking place with in your body; that is why you are feeling it so profoundly right now.   It is affecting your emotions more so than other parts of you.  Just as with the other individual finding that place and that time of being able to nurture yourself is what's most important. 

That is what takes us into the 2^nd half of your question of what is going on with you now and where am you going forward from here.  The universal answer to the majority of people, of course there are those who have deep seated issues that need to be resolved, but you are not one of them. The new energy, this new balanced energy is about moving forward from here with your focus upon what is happening now and what is happening going forward.   So if you begin to work with the energies on integrating the energies as they go through you; when you have a hot flash go through you, when you feel an emotions going through your body they oftentimes feel very uncomfortable because they are bottled up within you.  Become very comfortable with flowing the energies into the ground, perhaps into the room around you, flowing them somewhere outside of you so that they are not bottled up.  Let yourself focus upon being balanced within yourself.  We know we are saying that over and over again and some people may be thinking that's easier said than done.  It's about looking towards what you DO want to have in your body and what you DO want to have in your life.  So in looking at you and in looking at the issues, again it looks like everyone who has come to us tonight has had a very cluttered energy.  So trying to breathe through your energy field, release any clutter. Sometimes it means releasing clutter in your physical environment but most often it's about the clutter in your daily life; getting caught up in the trauma's and drama's of your daily life.  Sometimes it's something that is not going to go away, but you may find there are many things that will go away. If you allow yourself to focus on breathing in the balanced energy then sending that out into the environment or the earth.  Then when you feel the intensity of the hot flashes and the mood swings you can let drain from you in the same way.  Does that make sense to you? 

Yes it does, thank you.

You are welcome.

Question: (paraphrased) Hello Goddess, this is my first time so I'm somewhat nervous!  I've been working on my subconscious and conscious beliefs and the programs, etc. I really feel that I have something special to do and channeling keeps coming up.  It's not just ordinary channeling information, I really feel strongly it's something I'm meant to do. What do I need to work on?  Do you have some wisdom you can impart?

Answer: We see you already channeling when you don't really realize that you do so.  We see you talking to people as you are going through your days and some of the statements that come out of your mouth or some of the things that come through you make you think 'where did that come from'? That is coming from your higher self or your angels and guides around you. So we see that you are already doing that.  In addition we see a deep affinity to  animals around you.  We see you working with animals.  Animals as totems have been very popular over past years and it's not the same as what it once was, but its about recognizing how the transitioning energies is allowing the animal kingdoms to also help people as a means of balancing.  This is what we see you doing; somehow recognizing the link between animals and people and helping people to find something in the earth plane that they can resonate with that will  assist them with grounding and balancing. 

Ahhh, thank you!

Does that make sense?

Yes!

Excellent! And be aware that with the transitioning of energies things like that are going to be easier and easier to do all the time. Because what happens is that as people channel or as they reach towards their higher self to get information they are doing so from their higher vibration.  As more people live their lives in the 4^th and 5^th dimension  it's what allows them to have the easier access to this expanded information.

I'm just confused because right now I'm unemployed. I didn't know if there is something that was coming or if there is an action I should take or if  it will all flow.

It feels to us as if when it comes to employment there is something that has not yet been completed before you will get your job. Whether or not that means you are not looking in the right place or something needs to be settled within your mind; it's as if you've been looking for the wrong type of work.  We see you finding work that has to do with communication with people.  It doesn't feel like a 9-5 type of job where you are stuck in an office all day long.   It feels like you are doing something where you are up and about and going out doors for part of the day and you are talking to people.  We are not getting anything more specific than that and we're not sure what you have looked for in the past.  But as you are looking for work, as you consider what it is that really makes you feel happy and to us the perception is movement in your daily activity instead of sitting in front of a computer or a desk all day long.  As you breathe and work with your energies  as you open up and ask your consciousness and look for your answer then you will get insights on where to look on the computer, perhaps look in a paper, perhaps talk to people.  It feels like something happens and you just have your job. 

Thank you!

You are welcome.

Question (paraphrased) Hello Goddess, I totally appreciate your presence now and always, this is just such a wonderful experience.  So Mahalo for all of this! (You are welcome!) I feel very blessed and grateful to do the work I love; I work with crystals and minerals.  I connect people with them.  Even though it's a challenge financially there are things changing.  My issue if you want to call it that,  is that I reach certain level of confidence and I feel connected on a spiritual level to all that is going on and I allow the transactions to happen.  But I end up coming to this thought of intense fear that seems unresolvable.  It totally drains me and I have to start all over again.  I'm really tired of the fear coming in at the last second and I am wondering if there's any way for me to effectively deal with it?

Answer:  let me work with you for a few seconds here and see if we can help you get past it.   It has to do with past... um... Shelly is getting tired so it's harder to get the words through! It has to do with past being burned at the stake.  It's as if when you are coming out and putting your face there and telling everybody around you that this is what I do, this is what I'm available for; in this other experience when you really put yourself forth and said "this is what I do" that was when people stepped into their fear and they persecuted you for it.  That is where we feel this stemming from.  Let us work with you for just a second and see if we can help you shift it.  We invite you to take a deep breath in and breathe into your heart center.  As you do that, tap into that fear that comes up for you whenever you really step out.  Oops, there it is.  As you are bringing up this fear, we invite you to consciously scoop it up out of you as if you have these two golden hands or these two hands of love, energy and compassion; just like it is scooping it out of you to be released.  As you are doing this, I blow my energies through you.  With that it feels as if.....oof; we invite you to breathe deeply.  Breathe in all this balanced energy because it feels as if you are light headed or woozy.  Breathe down this balance.  Breathe down this calm.  Breathe down this inner knowledge, this inner awareness of who you are as a person in this lifetime.  Now you are awakening and you are looking around you with eyes that are seeing things differently, let yourself be at peace.  Let yourself know that this is a completely new time upon the earth.  You have so many gifts to offer and so many people that will be seeking you.  How are you feeling now?

Whew!  I feel totally appreciative.  I connect with everything that you have said.  I have had past life reading done where I am very aware of persecuted past lifetimes.  The surprising thing to me is that I have a higher level of confidence now and that comes in at the last minute.  I've been more aware of it in the past than I have in the present and now I feel more self confident.  It's the last second that it (fear) comes in and changes everything.  It's more of a physical thing in this lifetime.  Mentally I feel confident but physically I feel drained.

It was very real because we could see it very real within you as you did that.  You could see how you could transition it and shift it out, then fill up that space within you. It's a form of self sabotage as you are taking this final step.  It comes a little bit from that cellular or past memory of what was going on.  It's like all you need to do is get through the first time or two, then you will be fine.   Be gentle, be loving, be compassionate with yourself.  We see you setting up shop so to speak with several different places. It's like you are working with individuals and you have your own space there.  It's like you work a day here, another there.  As you set these things up, as you go into it, as you experience it; let your focus be upon you being filled up with the balanced energies. If you feel that nervousness, that draining energy, that fear; you can release it as easily as we just did.  Then you will find it is something you move past or move through more easily than you are anticipating.

I'm being guided to ask if there is a particular mineral or crystal that I can work with?  I don't know why that question is coming to me, but I'm feeling drawn to ask.

We have a sense there is one you already have.  It feels like it's from one of the islands, one specifically found in Hawaii.  You found it yourself or you got it from a shop that came specifically from the area where you are living.  It's a crystal that is aligned with Lemuria.  You are living in the exact perfect place that you need to be, you are very aligned with the vibration of the island and this is a crystal that has to do with that.  It feels Lemurian to us.  We saw it sitting in your hand when you first started speaking with us.

Alright, Mahalo for everything.  I am totally appreciative.  I've been asked to do work shops, I can see it coming.  That may be the different locations thing.  I don't know, I will have to let it manifest!  I feel much easier now. 

We see classes as a potential, but we see a lot of one on one also.

Okay great, well Mahalo, Mahalo!  For anyone else who asked the questions; we feel blessed to have your presence.

Well thank you very much, I appreciate that.

Alright, well thank you.  I thank everybody again for being a part of this journey tonight.  For those questions I was not able to get to, again I send out my heart, my thoughts, my love to you.  I invite you to look inside your heart and know that I am here and I transmit as much of my heart as I can to you!  

All right, as you as the humans and we as the universal people are moving forward day by day in this life that you are living, remember to fully feel, fully acknowledge, fully accept your masculinity and your femininity.  As you live your days upon the Earth, find the space to love and nurture yourself, feel the balance within you and let all of that be reflected in everything else that may be happening around you.

I am ever with you and within.

Ansaluia